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Thursday, May 1st, 2003
7:02 pm
Take us home for dinner!
Whats up? Well, within the past few weeks alot of shit has happened. Steve and I made up and he moved back in and everything went good for awhile. Until... I caught him cheating on me. CAUGHT him. So you wanna hear the story? Alright. So I had to pick up Layla early from daycare cause she had pinkeye. Steve was unaware of this. I came home a good 3 hours before I was supposed to. So I pull up in the driveway and there is his car, and some other car that I hadn't seen before. He was supposed to be at work too. So I walk in the house and go into my bedroom and there Steve is fucking this other girl. SHES FUCKIN 17 YEARS OLD!!! I wanted to kill him. I told her to get the fuck out of my house before I stuck her in the face and I told him to do the same. I didn't talk to him for like 4 days, or let him see his daughter. Actually he did see her. He picked her up from daycare and then stayed with her at home until I got there and then he left. We are still seperated and not really speaking except to discuss Layla. I'm so hurt. I dont even know what to do again. I'm legally bound to this man who I really don't want to be with. I'm not the girl that guys cheat on. I don't allow that. The last guy that cheated on me I left in a heartbeat and never returned to. I fuckin wanna kill him. But he's my babies daddy and my husband. I don't know anymore. MARRIAGE BLOWS!!!

Current Mood: angry
Wednesday, April 2nd, 2003
12:23 pm
Ain't life a bitch...
I'm sick of being married. It sucks. As you can probably tell, Steve and I are having problems. We both have too much stress in our lives taking care of a baby and supporting ourselves and all, so we take it out on each other. Right now, we are seperated. He moved back in with Travis and we trade the baby every other day. Its hard. I miss him alot, but I know that for now this is the best thing for us to do. He's getting out of control though, I am running out of things to do or say to him. He called me this morning and told me that he couldn't take Layla today because he was too hungover. I guess he spent the night drinking very heavily. I'm fucking pissed. Do I not have the right to be? He told me I didn't. I'm angry because he knew that he had a responsibility of taking care of Layla today and tonight, and he goes and drinks and fucks it all up. This is the 4th night in a row he has drank. He just fucks up so much without me watching over his shoulder. I found out today that the other nights he was drinking he brought Layla with him. He brought a fuckin 3 month old baby to his friends house while he got hammered. I am heated as hell. Thats his fucking kid, thats his responsiblity. He can't even spell his name right when he's drunk, how the hell is he supposed to take care of a baby?? I don't know what to do anymore. He's my husband, and the father of my daughter, but I don't even know what to do. When we are together, we fight, when we're apart, we fight, and he fucks up alot. He says he regrets everything, but honestly thats not good enough for me. I want the man back that I married. The guy that would do anything in the world for me and his daughter. Now he's just an alcoholic with no priorities in life. WHAT DO I DO??? I don't want to take him away from his kid. I think that would make things so much worse. She needs a father in her life no matter what. Somebody please read this and help me. I don't know what to do anymore.

Current Mood: angry
Friday, March 21st, 2003
5:11 pm


7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? gray and rainy

11. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? In a bad mood.
12. FAVORITE DRINK? Ocean Spray Spritzers
15. HAIR COLOR? light brown
16. EYE COLOR? green contacts, blue eyes

18. SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGES? Charlie- 23, Allison- 16
19. FAVORITE MONTH? May and June
20. FAVORITE FOOD? Italian
23. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? it depends....


25. SUMMER OR WINTER? summer

26. HUGS OR KISSES? both


32. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? Me, my husband, and my daughter
33. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? right now nothing
34. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? a calender
36. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? stayed at home with Layla
Friday, March 14th, 2003
3:00 am
What up people? I got bored so I decided to come write to ya'll... I don't even know if anyone still reads my journal, but whatever!

I started back at work last Monday. I miss Layla all day long and its so hard to not be with her. Shes 3 months old now, and just the cutest blonde haired, blue eyed baby girl. All day at work I sit and think about her. Steve gets off work at 3 though, and goes and picks her up from daycare, so I know shes not there all day. She actually only goes to daycare from 10:00 to 3:30. Its alright, but I worry about her alot.

Steve and I have been going through some shit lately. He told me that he's not as attracted to me now that I gained 30 pounds and stretch marks. WHAT THE FUCK?!?! We argue about this constantly. I brought his daughter into this world and he wants to try and tell me to lose weight and to go back to looking as sexy as I did before the baby. I cried. Honestly I cried for hours when he told me that. I was so hurt. Oh well. He left me a message at work yesterday saying that he was sorry and that he has come to realize how much more beautiful I am now that I am a mother. He feels bad and is genuinly sorry. I've already lost 7 pounds, so I'm making progress already!

I dunno though. I just wanted to write about whats up and whats been happening. Some of ya'll should leave me notes so I know I still have people reading this shit!

Peace Ya'll

Current Mood: cheerful
Friday, January 31st, 2003
4:13 pm
My Bad...
Steve and I got married in 2002, not 2001. I'm sorry!
3:32 pm
My New Life...
Ok so I know it has been awhile since I wrote. Yeah, I'm sorry. Shit's just been fuckin crazy. My life has totally changed and in a good way. Wanna hear...?

On July 21, 2001 me and my boyfriend Steve got married. It was so beautiful. I never thought my wedding day would be anything special until it happened. It was amazing. My dress was so beautiful and the whole ceremony was everything I could've ever wanted. We took our honeymoon right afterwards. We went to a little resort in the Bahamas. That was amazing too. We stayed there for a week and relaxed.

On December 10, 2002 I delivered a beautiful baby girl weighing in at 8 lbs, 3 oz. She is so perfect. Her name is Layla Anne and shes the best thing that has ever happened to me. Steve and I are so happy. She actually gives me purpose in my life, something to work for. Shes so beautiful. She's got blonde hair and big blue eyes. I love MY BABY GIRL!

So yeah, life is all good now. I'm as happy as ever. I will try to write in here and give updates, but my life is so busy now.

Peace out Ya'll!

Current Mood: high
Sunday, April 7th, 2002
1:43 pm
Survey Says...
1) Have you had sex more than once: yes.
2) Tried any other positions besides missionary: yes.
3) Used your hands for sexual purposes on a partner & vice versa: yes.
4) Performed and/or received oral sex: yes and yes.
5) Swallowed: yes.
6) Done 69: yes.
7) Used food for sexual purpose: yes.
8) Had sex in a car: yes... eclipse (difficult) and explorer (easy)
9) Had sex in a public place: no.
10) Had soreness or pains due to sexual activity: yes.
11) Stripped for someone or a group of people: ys
12) Had anal sex: no.
13) Had sex with someone you barely knew: yes.
14) Spent the night in a bed with someone of the opposite sex, without anything sexual happening: yes.
15) Practiced any weird fetishes: no.

1) Smoked cigarettes: yep
2) Drank alcohol: oh yeah!
3) Puked from drug usage: yes
4) Sniffed permanent markers or white out to get "high": no.
5) Smoked the killer weed [marijuana]: yes.
6) Smoked crack, or any other drug: meth
7) Tried heroin in any form: no.
8) Tried ecstasy: 4 times
9) Bought illegal drugs: yes.
10) Sold illegal drugs: yes
11) Had drugs in your possession at school: yes got busted once
12) Done any unusual drugs: does DXM count?
13) Took sleeping pills: yep
14) Took caffeine pills: yes.
15) Used 3 or more drugs at once: no... two at a time
16) Tripped acid: yes.
17) Overdosed: no.
18) Taken something you didn't know what it was: never
19) Gone to school/work on drugs: all the time
20) Been caught by your parents while you were on drugs: no... been around them, but not caught

1) Favorite type of music: rap
2) Least favorite type: shit.. i dunno
3) Favorite Song: I have alot... right now "Down ass bitch" - Ja Rule
4) Least Favorite Song:
5) Best concert youve ever been to: Cypress Hill
6) Most "puck rock thing" you ever did: Umm... no
7) From what type of source do you listen to your music: in my car... its got beats
8) What do your parents think of your music: hate it
9) What do you think of your parent's music: some od its ok
10) Decade that produced the best music? 90's
Monday, April 1st, 2002
2:23 pm
the best part of wakin up
I havent written in here in so long. Steve and I are leaving for Las Vegas tonight when he gets home. We're driving out there with Molly & Daren, Travis & Christina, and Steve & Jenni. Were all taking seperate cars obviously (thank god). I might have to switch cars with someone for a little bit though cause I dont think I can be with steve that long. Its a 30 hour drive out there not including stops. So lets see. I don't think I could possibly spend 30 hours in a car with Steve. Actually, it might be possible, cause were driving straight through so half the time one of us will be sleeping. Thats a sraight day driving. This is gonna be a bitch, but I'm excited. Its gonna be fun. I gotta bounce tho!
Friday, March 15th, 2002
11:41 am
It just keeps getting worse.,..
The other day I was sitting in my room just thinking about shit, and I realized that I havent gotten my period yet this month and i should've. Ok, so I decide that I need to take a pregnancy test because even though I'm on the pill, it doesnt make it impossible to be pregnate. I take the test and it comes up positive. Holy Shit, I cant go through this again. I took another test the next morning, and it came up negative. WHAT THE FUCK?!?! I need to know if I'm pregnate or not!!! I dont know what to do.. why does this shit always happen to me? I'm barely even 20 yet. Damnit...

Current Mood: anxious
Saturday, March 9th, 2002
10:17 pm
Call The Tangney
What up?!? I havent written in a while. Not that much has happened. Actually, I can't remember alot. I've been drinking alot lately, and I find myself blacking out more than I want to. Its amazing how when you drink you really gotta be with people you trust. I do such fucked up shit when I'm drunk, and if I wasnt with someone like Steve I would probably be raped and dead by now. He doesnt really like to drink, so he always takes care of me. I like to get completely shitfaced. I need to slow down though, I could easily get out of control.

Last week Steve and I went out to dinner with his mom, and her boyfriend, and then my dad and mom. Wow, that was interesting. Disaster. I hate it when our families are together... i gotta bounce, more later,
Monday, February 18th, 2002
12:09 pm
Valentines Day 2002....
One of the better ones i've had in a while. Steve woke me up on V-Day at like 10:00 AM and got me dressed and had me go out to the car. I had no idea where we were going, but he got in and started driving. First we stopped at his moms house and gave her some flowers. Then he just kept driving and I had no idea where he was going.

3 1/2 hours later...
We are in Crosslake, Minn at my cabin. I was so excited. He asked my dad to give him the keys to my cabin so we could spend the day (and night) there. It was the coolest thing ever. I havent been to my cabin in so long. I remembered how calm and relaxing it was up there. Being there just brought back so many memories. It made me cry at times. We had a really good night. He cooked a steak dinner and then we chilled for a while before going to bed. It was really really romantic. I'm not usually one for romance, but i couldn't resist falling for this one. We left the next morning at like 11 and drove home.

It was a good Valentines Day

No work tomorrow... Were gonna go get drunk!

Current Mood: thirsty
Saturday, February 2nd, 2002
2:55 pm
23001 Candlelight Drive...
I baby Steve too much. He's got strep, and I am totally babying him. I make him all his food, get him water, medicine, whatever he wants. Good thing this shit comes back to me when i'm sick.

He's still coming out with me tonight though. Thats good. I dont want to spend a Friday night without my baby. We're meeting up with our friend Nicole and then going to this dude Tim's house to party. Good times. I hope at least. I hope Steve doesnt die first.

He got his Eclipse back last night. Thats exciting cause he hasn't had it in 2 months. Its been broken. I love that car. This is also good, cause now we wont have to put hella miles on my truck any more. We look like we have so muhc more money w/ the Eclipse anyways.

Dan is a funny motherfucker. He lives with us. I dont know if we've been over this before, but he's 23 years old, and he is our housemate. Hes fuckin cool as hell. He got a new girlfriend. Shes always over here. Her names Katie. Shes quite young. 17. Wow Dan... goin younger. But oh well. Steve and I are 5 years apart. Nothin wrong witht hat really, I just never pictured Dan with a girl 6 years younger than him. They are cute together either way. He's happy, She's happy, she's cool too, so I can deal.

Ok, I gotta go get ready to meet Nicole. Peace

Current Mood: bouncy
Monday, January 28th, 2002
3:25 pm
I went gravesite visiting today. I went to my grandpas, Lil J's (jermaine), and Justins. I went alone, so I had about of time to just sit and think. Death is so hard to deal with. Not a day goes by that I dont think of Jermaine. What would he look like by now? What would his personality be like? What would my life be like? Its hard knowing that I'll never know. He'll never know. He was only here for 4 days. His life had just started. He'll never ever know.

Justin was only 22 when he died. He only got to live a small part of his life. He left his 3 sisters and his parents behind. He was 2 weeks away from getting married to a girl that he was so in love with. It was so unexpected too. The night before I was chillin with him and we were talkin bout all the shit we were gonna do that weekend. The next day he was gone. Shot in the chest 3 times. Why him? So many people get shot daily. Why Justin? The guy I've known for 6 years? All the sudden he was gone. You never really do get over it. At certian points in time you think you see them and that they suddenly came back. You have dreams that they are still here kickin it in the driveway on a nice summer night. You remember all the good times and how you want that to happen again. You pray to go back to those days. But you can't, cause he's gone forever. You walk through his house, and you can still see where he would sit in the room. People still leave Justins chair open thinking he's gonna walk in and sit on it. Its sad to think that this all happens like this. That people just... die...

I held Jermaine in my arms when he died. I felt the life leave his 4 day old body. I saw his eyes slowly close and him sleep. I wanted to wake him up but I knew he wasnt gonna wake up. I was angry that someone could take away a 4 day old baby. Why so soon... why at all? Why did he even have to come out alive. I would have rather had it so he died in the womb. So he never would've had to get all these tests done and be hooked up to all these machines. He would've died peacefully, nice and warm, without ever having to come out. I also wouldn't have had to see him. Now I forever have his picture stuck in my brain of a little helpless baby dying. I cant talk about it anymore.

Gravesite tours are very thought provoking. My tip for the day is to go bring flowers to the friends and family you've lost.

Current Mood: gloomy
Sunday, January 27th, 2002
6:12 pm
Last Chance for Inventory Clearance
Steve an I got busted shoplifting today. We were at Marshall Feilds jacking hella shit cause we were gonna just turn around and sell it to this store that buys brand name clothes. Actually, it wasnt me stealing. That was all Steve. I dont steal anymore since i'm on prohbation till i'm 20. So we walked out of MF's and this one undercover cop stopped us right as we were leaving. Actually he didnt stop us, he followed us all the way around the whole mall cause we were going to the car, way way far away. They followed us literally the whole way there. They never stopped us, they just followed us all the way there. 15-20 min tops. We ditched the shit, and walked back into the mall. We knew we were fucked, so we went outside and sat on the curb and waited for them. Officer Asshole came out and talked to us. In the end they couldn't press charges cause they didnt actually have us on tape doing anything. So they basically had to let us go. The "big" punishmet was we had to get off the property in 5 minutes or we could get charged with tresspassing. I was so fucking scared. I CAN'T get busted for anything for another 2 months or I get my lisence suspended for a year. That would suck too seeing how close I am to being off prohbation. It was pretty shitty. It all worked out ok though.

I love Steve. I am SOOO in love with that man. I never EVER felt like this with Bernell or Matt. I think those two were just... I dont know. They were different. I am so in love with Steve. I dont even know how to explain it all I know is that I dont ever EVER want to not be with him. He seriously is everything I've ever wanted in a guy. There is nothing more I can ask for from him. He is perfect. Maybe not to other people, but to me, hes perfect. I love him so much. I can't stop saying that.I love waking up to him, going to sleep with his legs wrapped around mine. I love the way he talks. I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM!

I am so sore! Steve and I wrestled yesterday. Damn was that full contact. When we brawl, we go all out. The only rule is no punching. We're fuckin on the floor on top of eachother trying to pin the other person down. We do crazy ass shit though. He likes to slap my ass really really hard and give me wedgies and shit. He fights dirty like that. It was fun though, but it hurts today!

Current Mood: sore
Monday, January 21st, 2002
9:24 pm
Another survey...
Name- Tara
Nicknames, including from family - Shorty, Sexy, Calli, Strobe, Layder
Birthday - 3.7.82
Age- 19
Astrological sign?- Aries
Chinese zodiac sign?- shit, i dunno
Location- Hopkins, MN
Sexual Preference- strictly dickly
Marital Status- serious relationship
Current Haircolor- Dark Blonde
Eyecolor... W/ & W/O contacts- Blue/green
Parents still together? Yeah
Syblings? Charlie- 22 Allison-14
Pets? Dog Nokio
In school/graduated? Graduated 2000
Rent, lease, or own your home? Rent
What do you do for work? Para Professional
How much do you make? Enough
What do you drive? Me- Black '95 Ford Explorer, Steve- Red '99 Eclipse

Black and White/Color: Dark Grey
Black/White: Black
Red/Blue: Blue
Dogs/Cats: Hound Dogs!
Roses/Daisies: Roses
Beer/Liquor: Liquor
Underwear/Thongs: THONGS!
Hair: Short/Long: Short
Boots/Shoes- shoes
Food: Mexican/Italian- Italian
Dark/Light- dark
Day/Night- night
City/Country- city
Sheets: Solid/Animal Prints - solid.
Sub/Dom - ???

Color- Dark Grey
Animal: seals
Vehicle - Cadillac Escalade
Flower: Yellow Rose
Beer: Anything light
Liquor: Skyy Vodka, Smirnoff Ice, Vodka, Gin, 99 Bananas
Soda: Dr. Pepper
Food: Ranch Dressing, Spaghetti, Pasta
Book - Shit dude...
Author - ^^
Musician- 2pac, Bone Thugs, St. Lunatics, Fabolous, B.I.G., Bubba Sparxxx
CD- Bone Thugs The Collection Vol. 1, Word of Mouf- Ludi, Notorious B.I.G- Born Againn
Song- Hey Luv- Mobb Deep feat. 112, Breakdown- Mariah&Bone, Lets Ride- B.I.G & Bone
Movie - The Fast and The Furious
Director- don't really care
Extracurricular Activity- Smoking pot...
Color your hair? No
Have tattoos? Yeah, on my lower back a small flame w/ the words "Vetti Venni Vicci" surronding it... its tight
Piercings? Belly Button, and soon a stud in my nose
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? Boyfriend

Have you...
Stolen anything? yeah
Smoke? I gotta quit
Pot? All day
Crack? Yeah
Drink? Hell yeah
Been so drunk you couldn't remember your name? Yeah
Been so drunk you didn't care that you couldn't remember your name? Yup
Posed for nude pics? Nope
Considered a life of crime? Yeah
Considered being a hooker? Yeah
Maybe a pimp? No
Cheated on someone? Yeah
Been married? no, almost 2wice
Been divorced? no

Are you psycho? No
Split personalities? No
Schizophrenic? No
Obsessive? No
Compulsive? No
Obsessive Compulsive? No
Panic? No
Anxiety? No
Depressed? No
Suicidal? no
Homicidal? no
Genocidal? no
Pedophile? no
Obsessed with hate? no
Mutilate animals? no
Idolize infamous criminals? no

*Kissed someone:Yeah
*Been in love: yeah
*Been so drunk you blacked out: yeah
*Cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend: yeah
*Kept a secret from everyone: yeah
*Set a body part on fire: hair count?
*Had an imaginary friend: no
*Called or seen a psychic: no
*Ever cried at a chick flick: yeah
*Had a crush on a teacher: yeah
*Found a cartoon character attractive: yeah, not in a serious way though
*Ever at anytime owned a New Kids on the block tape: yep
*Watched Punky Brewster: yeah
*Prank called someone: yeah
*Eaten a whole box of cookies and thought you were fat after: yeah
*Been on stage: yeah
*Gotten in a car accident: yeah

*Wear eye shadow: sometimes
*Have a dog: yeah
*Want a tattoo, and where: "SMS" on my ankle
*Have any regrets: no
*Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: Yeah, Steve.... we live together
*Crush: yeah steve
*Do you have a best friend: yeah steve
*Who do you go to for advice: Molly
*Who knows all your secrets?: Steve
*Who do you cry with: Molly & Steve

*God/Devil: yeah
*Yourself: yeah
*Your friends: yeah
*Aliens: yeah
*Love: yeah
*The Closet Monster: no
*One person for everyone?: yeah

Current Mood: high
Friday, January 18th, 2002
4:00 pm
5 things...
5 things that scare you:
1. death
2. clowns
3. snakes
4. gnomes
5. running out of food

5 things that make you laugh:
1. Steve
2. my friends
3. dumbasses
4. stoner jokes
5. News Radio

5 things you love:
1. Steve
2. my Brother/Family
3. my friends
4. my dog Nokio
5. music

5 things you hate:
1. Racism
2. People who fuck w/ money
3. Ditzes
4. 10 year olds in "love"
5. Pontiac Aztecks

5 things you don't understand:
1. Parents
2. Math
3. Girls
4. Zack/Adam
5. Did the chicken come first or the egg?

5 favorite things in your room:
1. pictures
2. my bed
3. my stereo
4. my fluffy pillow
5. my bong

Right now you are:
1. listening to music
2. Talking to Steve
3. I'm only doing 3 things

5 negative facts about you:
1. I get jealous easily
2. I am aggresive
3. I'm not good at school
4. I can come across as a bitch
5. I can get frusterated easily

5 positive facts about you:
1. I can talk to anyone
2. I got my friends back till the end
3. I'm funny
4. I will not back down from what I believe in
5. I can BITCH AT YOU!

5 things you can do:
1. Smoke
2. dance
3. remember good memories
4. freestyle
5. talk

5 Things You Can't Do:
1. math
2. be sober
3. draw
4. fall asleep w/ noise or lights
5. live without music

Top 5 songs you think are cool:
1. Welcome to Atlanta- Ludi & JD
2. They aint ready- Jadakiss-Bubba Sparkxxx
3. I see Booty- ??
4. Dead Wrong (Remix)- Notorious B.I.G.
5. Notorious B.I.G.- Notorious B.I.G.

Top 5 things that turn you on about boys:
1. Eyes
2. Butt
3. Attitude
4. Bad-Ass
5. Car

Top 5 things you say the most:
1. Ya Kno
2. Nigga (I'm white... oops my bad)
3. Scurred
4. I dont cur!
5. Shyt...

Current Mood: chipper
Thursday, January 10th, 2002
12:21 pm
Need For Speed II

Steve and I got in a fight today. It was a huge fight. I hate this so much. I dont know where he is. He hasnt been home since 3:30 today. I hope to god he comes back tonight. I cant spend a night without him when I know that its my fault hes not there.


Last night Steve and I were gettin umm... "intimate" right? So were laying there kissing, and guess who calls. My sister. Shes 15 years old and she was drunk off her fucking ass. Whoa. She wanted me to pick her up from a friends house and take her back to mine cause she didnt want my parents to pick her up drunk off her ass. I really didnt wanna stop what I was doing (obviously) so I told her to call back in an hour. She didnt call me back... her friend Ashley did. Allison (my sis) was puking her stomach out and she really needed to get picked up. So I told Stevie I would be back in like 10 min and I picked her up. I brought her back to my house and had her lay on the couch. I called our roommate Dan (he was drunk too) and asked him if he was talk to her and keep her occupied when he got home. He said yeah so I thought she was all cool for a bit. Steve and I got back to what we were doing and we starting having sex. We were interrupted 7 TIMES!! First Ally, then Dan, then Dan again, then Ally so on and so forth. IT WAS SO ANNOYING. I would always have to put the covers back on me and talk to them.

Monday, December 17th, 2001
3:34 pm
Parents and Children Together...
Me and Molly were boxing the other day, and she punched me and fractured my collerbone. Stupid bitch... j/k I aint even trippin. It hurts though.

Stevie is being so cute lately. He's being all cuddly and shit. Its so fucking cute. I love that boy. So So much. Especially since I got hurt he's like doing everything for me. He gets me dressed in the morning, he makes food for me, the boy thinks i'm broken for life!! But i love it.

Current Mood: exhausted
Thursday, December 6th, 2001
7:10 pm
Street Level- Northwest Corner
Steve got arrested yesterday. Like taken away arrested. I had to go pick him up at 4:00 in the morning.

So we were driving along 169 right? 3 fuckin squad cars pulled all around us and so we obviously pulled over. They had their guns drawn on us. He fit the description of this suspect in a driveby. Fuckin sucks. I watched him get arrested, they searched the car for weapons, they took him away. I drove his car home and sat down and cried myself to sleep. I was awaken at 4:00. It was Steve telling me that they didnt have enough evidence to hold him or even charge him and he needed me to pick him up. I've never been so happy.


Current Mood: drained
Saturday, December 1st, 2001
5:43 pm
CA cash refund...
I miss my baby. I miss him so so much. He's been gone since 6:00 this morning. First he had to go to work, and then he had to take his 6 year old sister to the hospital. He had to leave work early to pick her up from daycare and take her to the hospital because she has some shit in her lungs. I miss him so much.

Its so cute. Steve loves his little sister so much. He's 18 years older than her, and I guess he kinda thinks of her as his daughter or something. Its really cute. He loves her so much. Shes so adorable too. Her names Kayla. She has the most gorgeous long blonde hair I have ever seen in my life. Its all curly, but its in like ringlets. She looks nothing, NOTHING like Steve. She's half Hawiaan. I dont know where you find Hawiaans in Minnesota. Nothing against them or anything, but, his mom's a nutjob.

So its just me and Nokio the puppy here today. She's gettin really fat. I think we feed her too much.

I LOVE STEVE SOO MUCH!! All day thats all I've been thinking about is when i get to see him next. When is he gonna be home. I bring the phone with me everywhere incase he calls. When i see his cell phone number come up on the caller-id I answer it so fast. Every red eclipse that drives by, I watch to see if its him. I love that boy so much.

I have heartburn. Not heartache, heartburn. And i need to go tanning. I look like a fucking corpse.

Current Mood: lonely
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