JiGgA WhAt? (lookits420) wrote,
JiGgA WhAt?
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Ain't life a bitch...

I'm sick of being married. It sucks. As you can probably tell, Steve and I are having problems. We both have too much stress in our lives taking care of a baby and supporting ourselves and all, so we take it out on each other. Right now, we are seperated. He moved back in with Travis and we trade the baby every other day. Its hard. I miss him alot, but I know that for now this is the best thing for us to do. He's getting out of control though, I am running out of things to do or say to him. He called me this morning and told me that he couldn't take Layla today because he was too hungover. I guess he spent the night drinking very heavily. I'm fucking pissed. Do I not have the right to be? He told me I didn't. I'm angry because he knew that he had a responsibility of taking care of Layla today and tonight, and he goes and drinks and fucks it all up. This is the 4th night in a row he has drank. He just fucks up so much without me watching over his shoulder. I found out today that the other nights he was drinking he brought Layla with him. He brought a fuckin 3 month old baby to his friends house while he got hammered. I am heated as hell. Thats his fucking kid, thats his responsiblity. He can't even spell his name right when he's drunk, how the hell is he supposed to take care of a baby?? I don't know what to do anymore. He's my husband, and the father of my daughter, but I don't even know what to do. When we are together, we fight, when we're apart, we fight, and he fucks up alot. He says he regrets everything, but honestly thats not good enough for me. I want the man back that I married. The guy that would do anything in the world for me and his daughter. Now he's just an alcoholic with no priorities in life. WHAT DO I DO??? I don't want to take him away from his kid. I think that would make things so much worse. She needs a father in her life no matter what. Somebody please read this and help me. I don't know what to do anymore.
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